MONDAY SEPTEMBER 18TH
First of all I just want to say a huge thanks to everyone on social media who checked in on me after the day I had in work. I have every intention of telling you what happened but I don’t know how much I can tell you about the job I do.
In a nutshell, my job is very stressful. It’s long hours working with people who aren’t always open to hearing what you have to say. I have worked an 84 hour week before. It can be a racist place to work, it’s definitely a sexist place to work and if you’re new there (i.e not a permanent member of staff, you’re on contracts) it’s like you have a neon sign above you saying “please make my life a misery”. There’s only a couple of bad eggs in the bunch but it can be very hard. I went to an all girls secondary school and there’s more childish and bitchy behavior in my work now than there was in my school. This is a school where one girl set another girls hair on fire. Yeah, really.
Last night I hit a wall. I’m usually the person who will walk away from confrontation if the other person isn’t willing to sit down and talk it through in a calm manner. So I let people in work walk all over me and have done for two years. Yesterday there were a series of events that happened and it was the straw that broke the camels back. Where I work is very dangerous and one of my jobs is to make sure that people go home to their families at the end of the day. So it’s a pretty serious place. I’m also the type of person that reaches a certain point of anger where all I want to do is cry with frustration but in turn, it makes me look weak. That annoys me even more.
Thankfully one of the girls I work with is a dear friend and she was in. We had a good chat about it all and calmed my anxiety down. It still didn’t change the fact I’m an emotional eater.
So I failed.
I had a Mc Donalds and I regret every morsel. I had full intentions of doing a workout when I got home but I got home at 2am. When I got in the door and saw how excited my little old man of a dog was to see me, I just burst into tears. Pure stress. Stress that I didn’t even need because I was in on overtime as a favor. So with all that combined I feel pretty crap right now. I’m going to go at it again tomorrow. No holding back with my exercises and eat incredibly healthy.
When I got home, I was all over the place. Still am, it’s 7am and I’m writing this so I’ll be asleep all day! If I don’t reply to your comments here or on social media that’s why!
I really wish I was reporting good news today but I’m not. What happened, happened and it was reality. I’m being completely honest and I’m not sugar-coating this because I don’t see a point in it.
I know it was only a bump in the road but we could still all do without those at the end of the day.
I really hope you can report back something positive about your day and that everything is going well for you.
The sun has now risen so it’s time for some sleep.
Night all x
Don’t forget to use the hashtag #14DAYCHALLENGE #LIFEOFA so I can see how you’re finding the 14 Day Challenge.
Massive thanks to Beth for using her incredible graphic design skills for my 14 Day Challenge headers and putting up with my indecisiveness! Check out her design instagram!
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