TUESDAY 19TH SEPTMEBER
I’ve debated putting days 9 & 10 in the same blog post because there really isn’t much to talk about. I’ve decided not to because I’d like to go back and see every day individually and see what and how I did on each day.
I’ve said to you a couple of times now that I do shift work. Monday night/Tuesday was spent changing from day shift to night shift. Its like I’m in a permanent state of jet lag. Having finished my last blog post at 7am Tuesday morning, I slept all day. I woke at 6pm however that was the day gone.
I didn’t do anything really apart from going to Tesco at 9pm for some ingredients for a Lemon and Lime Avocado Cheesecake I’m making. I really hope it turns out well, I’ll being doing a blog post on it for my Expectation VS Reality series.
The idea yesterday, considering it was my day off, was to write a couple of blog posts and prep for others. However I didn’t realise that my family is on two weeks holiday! They don’t know I blog! I also decided to take it easy because my heart is still racing in my chest from work on Monday. It’s almost like I’m having a subdued and prolonged panic attack but its making me feel really uneasy, sick with worry.
Although Lucy’s workouts help no end with my anxiety, I decided since my heart is already under some strain there’s no point in putting it under any more unnecessary strain (raising my heart rate through exercise). Instead I sat back, caught up with Youtube videos and The Bake off.
Since I decided not to exercise, I made sure I really took care of myself. I ate good food and made sure to drink plenty of water. I’ll be doing twice as many workouts tomorrow because I don’t want to feel defeated.
I am sorry that it hasn’t been as upbeat around here lately but I wanted to blog truthfully and authentically. This is my reality, the reality of navigating life and trying to lose weight while having a job that physically makes my heart hurt but I can’t afford to leave it.
I am incredibly determined to completely turn my life around. I want to be able to look back a year from now and say, “Everything looked so impossible then, but look at me now. I’ve come further than I ever thought I could”.
What are the things you want to change in your life? Are you struggling with them now, how do you plan on overcoming them?
Don’t forget to use the hashtag #14DAYCHALLENGE #LIFEOFA so I can see how you’re finding the 14 Day Challenge.
Massive thanks to Beth for using her incredible graphic design skills for my 14 Day Challenge headers and putting up with my indecisiveness! Check out her design instagram!
14 DAY CHALLENGE:
14 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 10-14 – RESULTS
EXPECTATION VS REALITY SERIES